eh . .

so unfortunately, i've left blogspot . 

i'm on tumblr now .

J U L Y'S own .

i'll be back . . periodically . 

peace . love . lish ♥

goneee . .

so um . . i guess it's true what they say ;

'absence makes the heart grow fonder'

for me, i've experienced this is many situations . i've missed someone . . knowing they'll be back & i've also missed someone knowing i won't see see them again . when you're without someone who you're used to constantly being in your presence, or constantly talking to them . . you realize so much about them . you tend to appreciate them so much more . & maybe even that you took them being there for granted

i went through this heavy with my mom when she passed . i realized that i didn't appreciate her as much as i should've & i DEFINITELY took her for granted in more ways than one . now, that she's no longer with us, i appreciate so much more all the things she taught me & the things she put me through to teach me . & i will always think they are the reason for me being the way i am today .

it sucks that it takes someone being missing for you to fully put things into perspective about them . i'm going through this even now . my boyfriend is in a little 'situation' & i haven't talked to him in almost a week & we were supposed to be together this weekend . but during this time i haven't talked to him . . i guess you can say i realized how i truly felt for him . & i really miss him .

so basically what i'm trying to say is . . . appreciate your loved ones & let them know often how much you love them . because you never know when they can easily be torn from your life for whatever reason .

peace . [ love ] . lisha ♥

SONG OF THE DAY : officially missing you - tamia ♥

reasonable doubt . .

'to wish you were someone else is to waste who you are'

well. . today i was sitting around thinking [ & yes, i do think ] about all the people who've hurt me . i know it's weird to sit around & think about these things but for me, thinking about all the struggles & things i've been through makes me feel better as well as motivates me .

but anyways . . i was thinking that MOST of the people who've hurt me are people who i've given the benefit of the doubt . . well i'm not doing that anymore . in 2O1O, i've set MAJOR goals . .& i'm not gunna let anybody else bring me down more than some other people have tried . from now on . . i'm gunna start trusting my first instinct . if i have a bad feeling about something from jump . .i'm gunna stick with that .



i know it seems as if i'm going to be judging books by their covers . . & i'm not gunna lie, in a sense i am . but remember ; for soo long, i've been the person to not judge a book by its cover & look where it's gotten me .


while i am thankful for my struggles & the people who've hurt me . . [ ya'll thinking 'wow she's dumb' . ] because they've made me who i am today . they are all things i wish i never had to endure . but i am kinda glad i did .


peace . [ love ] . lisha


SONG OF THE DAY : nothin on you - b.o.b. ♥

 











 

just wait . .

miss me ? tonight, i'm coming at you guys on some real spit for real .

so . . i guess you guys know about how i was on this lil 'hunt' for mr.right for a while, right ? well . . i stopped . it was becoming tiring & i kept getting stuck with a whole bunch of wannabes . people that weren't worth my time or patience [ go figure that ] . i decided to just sit back & WAIT .

i learned about this lil thing called patience . & how important it truly is . . you ever heard this saying ;

"good things come to those who wait"

me & james on our first date at the hawks game :) ♥

it's very true . after i finally decided to quit searching & just wait . . i was sent something indescribable . i never fathomed being this happy with a person . & as most of you know, happiness is something that i more than deserve . it hasn't even been that long . . but i can see that my patience paid off .

"i waited patiently for the LORD ; he turned to me & heard my cry" - Psalm 40:1

so basically, what i'm saying is . . stop rushing & going out & looking for yourself for things . . just wait . the longer you wait, the better the reward is . - peace . love . lisha ♥

SONG OF THE DAY : stay in my life - ester dean ♥

 

the sweetest thing i've ever known . .

omg so i know ya'll probably hate me right now . . but i've just been super busy . but here's just a little update on life right now . . i've FINALLY been cuffed . . yay ! haha . after all this time . . lil ol lisha finally found somebody . . & he's a very good guy . :) shout out to you babe ♥

but anyways onto tonight's topic . . . . TRUST . yes, i said it . i know you guys are thinking 'how dare you speak . . well type such a word' . . but over the last few days i've been put in a stiuation where i've been trying to figure out what exactly this trust thing is & where does it come from . people run around saying 'you can't trust dudes/girls at all' . . but do you even know what trust is ? 

DICTIONARY DEFINITION PLEASE ! :

'reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc. of a person or thing ; confidence'

so wait . . you're saying i'm supposed to rely on this person's integrity . . but what if they don't have any ? . . unfortunately, not everyone has a good, kind heart . . or has your best interest at heart . people will come into your life & screw you over [trust me, i know] & it's not a good feeling at all . . especially when you trusted that person . am i saying you shouldn't trust anyone ? no . what i am saying is that you need to be very careful in who you do choose to trust . i honestly don't just go handing out trust to just ANYONE . . cause half of these people aren't worth the pain & heartache .  trust, to me . . is like love . . they kinda correlate in a sense . . if you think about it . do you just go around loving everybody ? . . didn't think so . . so you shouldn't just go around handing your trust to everyone either . . & with that . . i'm out . i'll be a lot better with blogging . . just had some things going on . . but i love you guys :) . . thanks so much for continuing to support me - peace . love . lisha . ♥

SONG OF THE DAY : sweetest thing - lauryn hill ♥

 

& the road stops here . .

so . . to start this blog off, i'd like to give a shotout to peter poole . . he's given me a lot of the topic ideas, so you guys should thank him as well lol
but anyways . . so after a couple events that occurred today & part of last night too, i've decided to let some people out of my life . one person of which was at first a huge blessing in my life . . became part of the reason i struggled with my self-esteem more than i already had prior to meeting him . even now, i feel like all he does is try to bring me down . like i feel like he thinks he's better than me in a sense . so i think it's time he & i go our seperate ways . i kinda hate but i think it's probably for the best .


but on a another note . from that i took people are gunna come in your life & some of them aren't gunna do anything but try bring you down . but it's your job to block them . let them know that ish aint happening around here . but no matter if you get rid of them . . another one will come along . it's just a fact of life . . you'll always have one of those people in your life . even if you're that type of person bringing someone down . . there's someone else trying to bring you down as well . i've learned that you just can't trust everyone . . like tyga said ;

' my heart big but it beat slow . . you can't trust everybody that you meet yo ' 

& he was absolutely right ! . . you just can't . you always end up hurt . because in a sense, you're giving that person the right & opportunity to hurt you . i'm not saying not to trust anybody . . just be careful who you choose to trust . & make sure they're even worthy of your trust .  :) - peace . love . lisha . ♥

SONG OF THE DAY : sing like me - chris brown ♥

SIDENOTE : it's off his new album that comes out in a couple weeks . . although i am a victim of abuse, i still love his music :) ♥

the now is a gift . . that's why it's called the present :)

so before i start this blog, i wunna give a shotout to one of my really close friends : bentley marshall davis . he knows why . love you bent bent ♥

anyways, i would like to start out by saying thank you to everyone . if you scroll down to the very bottom, you will see that i have 400+ views on this blog . & this is only my 12th post . . that really means a lot to me .
what i really wanted to get at tonight was letting your past affect your future . i've been guilty of this lately . . in more ways than one . .in my social life, my love life, & even my school life . & one thing that i've truly learned is that if you let your past mess up your future . . or even your present, you will almost always be behind . no matter how hard you try to get ahead, if you let it, your past will always be right there . . pulling & tugging at you . but that's only if you let it . .





you HAVE to let go . as hard as it may be . . it's so worth it in the long run . because you'll finally get somewhere . letting go of the future for a bit & focusing on the now for a lil bit is also crucial . we so often lose ourselves in planning our futures, that we get lost in the present . you can plan all you want . . but to tell you the truth, those things may not even happen . the REAL plan for your life . . & the things that may happen is GOD'S PLAN . ♥i don't have much else to say . .  (: i love you guys ! ♥ - peace . love . lisha
 


SONG OF THE DAY : pusha - lloyd & lil weezy ♥

single for the nightttt :)

welps! whatthefuxkup ? have you guys missed me ? i've been slacking . . i know . i'm oh so sorry ! i've been pretty darn busy . they weren't lying when they said junior year could potentially kill us ! but this blog tonight is for all the single ladies . . & single gentlemen too ! lol .
on some real ish i'm starting to LOVE being single . . it definitely does have it's perks . for instance, i can go out . . do what i want without having to constantly text someone or have them be mad because i was out doing me . it's faboluous, i love it ! i will admit, it does get kinda lonely especially during the caking hours lol . but HEY, that's just more sleep for me (: . basically what i wanted to get at tonight was that you don't need anybody to make you happy . you're perfectly capable of doing it on your own . like i said, it's always nice to have that special someone out there thinking about you . but at the same time you won't die without it . this past month or so that i've been single is the LONGEST i've been single since december of 'O6 . & i'm starting to see all the things i was missing because i was tied to someone . . it doesn't seem like a lot until you see what you've been missing .
also, those of you who know me well, know that i've been on the hunt for a while now . . for the next victim lol . . but for now i'm gunna stop searching & let him find me . which i know he eventually will . i don't feel forced to be in a relationship anymore . . it took me a while to get out of that phase, but i'm DEFINITELY out of it now . that's all for the night kiddos  . .mama is tired . but i'm coming back hard within this next week ! - peace . love . lisha ♥
SONG OF THE DAY :
pillow talkin - tyga ♥

SIDENOTE : he has a mixtape dropping at midnight called BLACK THOUGHTS cop that ishh !

sacrificing ? . . what's that .

sorry i missed you guys last night . . almost didn't make it tonight either . just been having a rough couple of days that's all . not really handing out any major advice tonight . . just gunna speak some stuff on my heart . so here goes . .

it's just crazyy & funny how you can dedicate 2 & half years of your life to someone that you think you love & all of a sudden almost out of nowhere how you hate them . i never fathomed this . . but that's the exact position i'm in right now . i went through some things with this boy that a girl my age shouldn't have even had to deal with . & he just wasn't worth the sacrifices that i've made & continue to make . especially when he's running around living his life as carefree as possible . i've grown to accept the fact that he's a bad person who hurt me in more ways the one . i've s l o w l y accepted the fact that i can't have the things he took away from me back . but he's prepared me fore so much . he's taught me so much . now i always know when a guy's lying to me . . or when anyone's lying to me period . he's also made me afraid . . terrified to ever put my trust in anyone or to love anyone .

he won't go through life without paying for all the things he put me through . when i was pregnant at 15 years old, i shouldn't have felt as alone as i did . .no one should feel the way that i felt emotionally . . i was going through things that a grown woman would be . at 13, 14, & 15 years old, i should've been enjoying my life as a teenager without a care in the world . but he made that impossible . . he took us saying that we were 'married' literal . . that's why i tell people to be careful when saying they're married . i don't have to be your wifey i'm content with just being your girlfriend sweetheart .
so what i'm trying to say is . . i'm FINALLY at peace with this situation . i now have contentment & no longer resentment because i know i didn't do anything wrong & that it wasn't some type of punishment as i thought of it for so long . also, i know that there's a guy out there somewhere who wants to love me for who i am & who's willing to treat me the way that i deserve . . who will sacrifice for me the way that i'm willing to sacrifice for him . . who will love me AND my child for all the right reasons in all the right ways . sweethearts . . where ever you are, i can't wait to meet you & when i do, i'm going to give you the world

never put your all into someone when they're not willing to do the same . never let someone make you feel weak & incapable when you know you're strong & capable of anything that comes your way . never put yourself in situations that you're not ready for . never hold on when there's nothing there & you should've let go a long time ago . always remember that you're never alone & that God is right there . . pushing us . & that there can't be sunshine without the rain . . with all the rain comes a beautiful ray of sunshine [ & a rainbow too :) ] - peace . love . & lisha [ ♥ ]

SONG OF THE DAY :
superhuman - ginuwine ♥

SIDENOTE : his status inspired the song of the day ♥

yay !

2OO views !
i'm overjoyed right now . thanks SO much guys !

also, check out the bestie Tev's blog . . he da he da best !

[ ♥ ]
peace . love . lisha 

 

miss independent . .

I - N - D - E - P - E - N - D - E - N - T : do you know what that means ?well, fellas that means that i don't need you for anything . i got my own money [ $$$ ] . & i definitely take care of mine sweetheart . nah, i wasn't born into the mula but i don't need you for it ! more than often, i stumble across a guy who just knows his chick needs him & she would be a broke mess without him . & those are typically the guys who end up with the golddiggers who want them for nothing but the mula .

it seems to me that in our generation, the fellas just can't handle a girl who takes care of hers without them . & maybe that's the reason that i'm STILL single . it's not that I'M not good enough for anyone, i haven't met anyone that was good enough for me . . & that's not to sound conceited in any way, shape, or form . why not have a female that can meet you half way ? that can help you out when you might be down ? as opposed to a female taking advantage & being the one bringing you down ? hmmm . . think about that .REMEMBER :

money is the motive .

let's forget [ only for a second ] how weezy meant it . . but look at it like this ; some [ not all ] females feel like they're too good to do things & have to work for things . . so they're motive could be to search & find a guy that will be able to provide that lifestyle to where they won't have to work . hmm . .never looked at it that wayy huh ? yeaaa . . i know you didn't . lol : ) .

so fellas ; just keep your eyes open & you penis down & maybe you can realize that an independent chickk may just be what you need in your life . & we don't think we're too good for anyone . . we just know our role & we play it well  ; AMAZINGLY ! so keep this in mind guys (: - peace . love . & lisha [ ♥ ] .

SONG OF THE DAY : the thrill - wiz khalifa ♥

SIDE NOTE : if you haven't downloaded this mixtape yet, you're on crack . : ) ♥

 

she wears the world on her shoulders . .

' & no one else could really understand . .
soo that song is pretty much genius ! i love it ! but anywhooo . this evening ladies & gentlemen i want to talk about attention & all the aspects of it . *sigh* .

ATTENTION :
dictionary definition please : NOTICE or AWARENESS 

now ladies & gents . . it absolutlely kills me how far out of your way some of you go for this 'notice' & 'awareness' . like seriously, some things people do for attention are so unnecessary & they make you look absolutely STUPID . i can not stand attention cravers & attention whores . it really isn't a good look & you don't look cute . so whatever it is you are doing for some attention, is it worth your dignity or your reputation ?

i hate to say it, but girls are the worst . sweetheart, [ & i just hope she happens to be reading this ] if after everything you've done for some notice ( & you know the things you've done ), you still feel unnoticed, then that sounds like you're dealing with something else within yourself that you need to handle . because trust me you have been noticed . . just probably not in the way you wanted or expected . 
& with that . . i'm off - peace . love . & lisha [ ♥ ] .


SONG OF THE DAY : never knew i needed - ne yo ♥ 

hate it or love it . . the underdog's on top .

been gone for a couple days . did you guys miss me ? .  . i've had a busy couple of days . friday night i went to our last football game for this year . it was a bittersweet feeling for everyone . we won, but we're not going to the playoffs for the first time since 2OO4 . but the boys played their hearts out (: i love you boys [ if any of you happen to be reading this, which i highly doubt ] . then, yesterday was christian's FIRST birthday party . time flies man, my aunt & i were talking & we definitely agreed this was the shortest year ever . he's grown into the cutest little person EVER & i dare you to say otherwise !

but on to the topic of this blog (: . i was given some advice from a guy the other day . . advice from guys about guys is the best advice by the way . . but this guy was telling me that guys actually like it when the girl makes the first move . he was also telling me that guys tend to have the same, exact insecurities us girls have which is sometimes why they don't make the move first .

but ladies remember : DON'T THROW YOURSELF ON THE GUY! it's not cute & that's a major turn off & it makes you look easy . which is definitely not good . . just let them know what's up, how you're feeling, etc . & go from there . . if they turn you down, then oh well . at least you can walk away knowing you tried, right ? right . well, that's all for now guys . . i'll shoot something else your way later tonight to make up for lost time (: - peace .  love . & lisha . [ ♥ ]

SONG OF THE DAY : break up to make up - jeremih ♥

 

i made it this far . .

DEFINITELY not gunna turn back now [ ♥ ]good evening ladies & gents . today has been a very long day . . so i decided to wind down with a little bit of blogging about some things on the brain . for starters . . i do have a new love interest [ ♥ ] . . we've known each other for a while & to my knowledge he's been feeling me for a while & i'm finally gunna give him a chance . but for now we'll keep his name on the hush hush . he's a pretty cool cat though . trust me .

but on to what i really wanted to blog about today goes out to all the ladies . . & the guys can take a lot from this too . i'll admit, i sleep on the fellas & dog them a lot . so i'll put a lil blame on the girls in this situation too . but here goes . . LADIES, we too often put wayyy too much of our trust in men [ boys ] . we immediately fall into their lies & into their bs . trust me . . i know . i'm a victim of it & i've done it many times . they tell us they're gunna be there forever knowing that they don't plan on being there more than a few weeks . that they love us . . when they wouldn't know love if it was looking them in the face . & i hate the naivety that some girls have for it . i see it everyday . ladies, you HAVE to know the signs . & how to react in these situations .

•  situation 1 - 'i love you' : first off, if he tells you he loves you & you guys have been together a month tops, he doesn't mean it . no real man can really love you that fast . it's more than likely it's just lust .
  what you should do : DO NOT, I REPEAT DO NOT FEED INTO IT ! for one, you really don't love him, you're just saying it because he's saying it & 9 times outta 10 he doesn't mean it either . if you do say it & things end up not working out, you'll be the one hurt & he'll be fine living his life happily . so be veryy careful . 
• situation 2 - 'i wunna be with you forever' : at our age, none of us know what we really want outta life . we're still young & we're still figuring ourselves out . so we can not really determine who we wunna be with forever . especially boys, they have the hardest time figuring out what they want out of life period .
  what you should do : just let him know that you're still young & you want to take things slow . that you're not looking for you lifetime partner just yet . but you would like you & him to last . that way the next week when you guys are broken up, it won't be that bad . 

FELLAS : what you guys need to do is stop feeding females these lines just to get what you want . i respect a guy soo much more if he just tells me off top what he wants . now if it's just sex, he's not gunna get that anyways & i tell him to exit to the left because he's been dismissed . but the point is a girl will have so much more respect for you just being honest, up front, & real . that's all i ask for in a guy . is that he just be real with me & i'll be real with him . when the trust barrier is broken, there really is much left to the relationship & something had the potential to be something great is now ruined . so if there is a 'special' girl in your life . .let her know what's really up & how you really feel . i know we as females tend to get too attached or too clingy, but don't do things to provoke or prolong it . try your best to cut it out right away to avoid the drama that comes with the break up . also, be smart & wise when choosing who to date . don't just chose a girl because you know she's putting out, those are the worst ones emotionally . pleaseeee be careful !



i hope i was of some type of help tonight . i just had to get that off my mind . i'm tired of watching girls get played or hearing my friends come to me with things like this . also, i've been in these same situations & i'm single now . .lol . what does that tell you ? so i'm just speaking from experience guys . be blessed . - peace . love . & lisha [ ♥ ] . 


SONG OF THE DAY : - single - lil wayne [ ♥ ]

SIDENOTE : you should definitely cop that no ceilings if you haven't already ! (: . it's genius !

word to ya motha son . .

sooooo i missed out yesterday guys . i had SO much to do & i wasn't feeling good at all . it was actually a pretty bad night . i was in my feelings ; about a lot of things . but i'm better today (:



today was a pretty chill day . we got grades & i must say mine are looking AMAZINGGG & it's all because i'm finally focused . for once . no boys, no drama, nothing  . i've kept my head in the books . something i haven't done in a while & i've prospered GREATLY from it . i actually understand the work i'm doing . which is great .

so i guess i have a fan club now ? out of literally nowhere all these guys wunna notice me & talk to me . . not feeling the sudden attention at all . i mean at all . i'm loving the single life a lot . ♥ . i'm not even gunna lie though, i've been just a tad bit lonely . but i have the TRUE love of my life . christian [ ♥ ] . . he's pretty beasty just in case you didn't know .

well, friends . i think that's all for today . i didn't really have much to blog about . but i should have some more interesting stuff to hit you with in the next few days . but please keep supporting me as i'm starting to do something that i love & passionate about . - peace . love . & lisha [ ♥ ]

SONG OF THE DAY : - venus vs. mars - jay z ♥  

& i thought i wanted to be famous . .

BUT, i've quickly changed my mind . . i hear it's not all it's cracked up to be
so today, i thought a lot about some things . life's been kinda crazyy lately . . in both good & bad aspects . i've been going through what i think is my FIRST real heartbreak . but like every other obstacle i've endured in life, i've just learned from it . but the particular situation makes me think of this quote ;

'never make someone a priority when they're only willing to make you an option' 

i must say that's some of the most realest spit i've ever read . for so long, i was the only one out of us two even attempting to make it work . i thought i had to try . . but then i s l o w l y started to see that his effort wasn't there & it just wasn't worth it so i slacked off . welll, when i decided to slack, he noticed . . & in a nutshell threw what we had away . . i thought he was different but i was let down . but hey, there's more fishies in the sea for lil ol me (:


but basically, what you should've taken from that whole spill was that . . no matter how significant of a priority you try to make that person you can still only be an option to them . it sucks, but you what that's called ? LIFE//REALITY on a much lighter note ; i feel myself becoming an amazingly better person . & i'm soo happy about that . & i have some amazing people in my life .

welp friends, i think that concludes today's post ! love you guyss . . thanks so much for supporting me !



SONG OF THE DAY : papers - usher ♥ 



peace . [ ♥ ] . lisha (:




 

allow me to introduce myself . . .

well . . well . . well .

they call me lish . lisha . lee lee . lee . . or just simply wilson . i've blogged before . but i was never serious about it . but EVERYONE has a blog now . so i thought 'hey, why not ?' . i mean seeings how i wunna be a writer anyways, i should start somewhere right ? i will probably blog about the most random things EVER . but hey . that's who i am . i may blog about my day & how i'm feeling or just something going on in the world . cause i'm cool like that . 

my best friend tevin [ ♥ ] gave me a pretty cool idea . . . so thank him for giving me the idea to bless you guys with my amazing words (:

welp, that's all i got for now my friends ! please be sure to follow me .




SONG OF THE DAY : ordinary people - john legend ♥